Tuesday, October 7, 2008

well, no, but I've THOUGHT about starting it...

We all have certain tendencies towards the odd, don't you think? It's what makes us unique. Sometimes "odd" becomes "debilitatingly odd;" we organize those tendencies, such as they are, under a veritable alphabet soup--OCD, ADD, and so on. My point: If obsessive-compulsive and attention deficit disorders had cousin conditions along the lines of only "odd" (rather than "debilitating"ly so), well, then, I would quickly self-diagnose into both of those groups. 

E.g. I can't--really, can't--focus on homework, or much of anything, if the house is untidy (upside, though? Clean house). 

E.g. I can't sleep at night until I have a basic idea of what my schedule is like for the next day. (Sometimes until I've picked out my clothes.)

E.g. my age-inappropriate levels of distractability (e.g. me writing this blog post rather than doing my homework. I like my homework. It's interesting. Just can't do it for more than 10 minutes at a stretch.). 

E.g. I can't sit still at work with nothing to do; I start dusting the bookshelves instead. 

E.g. I can't let it go that this kid's PoliSci paper I'm tutoring him on doesn't consistently choose either constitution or Constitution. 

E.g. I pull out Chicago to show him why it's Constitution (he would've taken my word for it either way). 

E.g. there's something deeply soul-satisfying for me about seeing folders within folders--on a computer hard drive, with my personal hard-copy files, what have you. So organized! So wonderful! So...boxy! and contained! 

E.g. the fact that it took me years--years!--to come to grips with a descriptivist (rather than so militantly prescriptivist) stance on English grammar; I still have a fond place in my heart for those dear little rules and labels, for all their inconsistencies.

E.g. I've added and deleted that little double-period up there, the .). spot, half a dozen times now. Can't decide if I want it or not, and it's still bothering me.

I think I like control, routine, order about a lot of things in my life, sometimes at the expense of common sense. My husband is a patient man. Do I need to weed these traits out of myself?

3 comments:

Katherine said...

I keep trying to self-diagnose as ADD, but no one else seems to take me very seriously. Haha. Really, though, I sometimes think I've taken procrastination and distractibility to never-before-seen levels.

Oh, and I LOVE folders within folders too.

Ryan said...

It should be called CDO instead of OCD, with the letters in alphabetical order like they should be.

Katie Rogerson said...

I agree with the folders in folders thing. If it's not I'll sometimes even try to make up a reason for it being there. And Colin mocks me for my distractibility